I now know that we are here to help ourselves and then help others, and that there is this common denominator here in life within our interconnectedness. I believe we are all emissaries of Divinity — whether another individual is a mirror; triggering what needs one’s attention within, a Divine messenger for a simple reminder of hope, or a hand to hold to get one through “it”.  Our interconnectedness is the essence which brings us back to ourselves. But, we have to choose growth or else our consciousness will rarely be aware of the guidance.

My Breakdown was my breakthrough

Fast forward to postpartum — I was going through something the western world wouldn’t understand. Even though it was a psychological anxiety disorder, it was all very spiritual and energetic. I had started going through what great Spiritual teachers call A Dark Night of the Soul. It was a spiritual awakening. It was an unraveling of what was false and not mine. It was a stepping into what I always was underneath it all. But it was difficult.

Come to find, it was only difficult because my internal belief systems governed my perceptions, and that life itself was difficult, and that I was a victim of the supposed lack of love in my life. My self worth was creating a limited mind and limited reality. I did not know anything about the ease of conscious creation for the beautiful life I was able to walk.

So, I struggled through OCD and my awakening. Looking back — what was actually occurring was the resurfacing and release of the illusions, distortions and assumptions my active imagination fabricated for the ego. I swam in it while consuming alcohol but now sober, I felt it tenfold. It was actually leaving, but it had to go through me to do so.

And into my awareness came the answers. I started having teachers, psychologists, philosophical teachings come into my life. Through personal relationships, I had other spiritual and religious friends start to reach out to support me. I had been very open about mental health awareness on social media, and it was making an impact.

I was then introduced to a friend of a mutual friend. She owned a yoga studio and spiritual healing center not too far from my home. She had a near death experience which allowed her to come back with a different level of awareness; a higher perspective and knowing of life. Her truth felt like my truth. She was familiar. She was an intuitive empath, a spiritual life coach, and a medium. She felt like me. She allowed me to understand these very similar abilities within myself, and life actually started to make more sense. I was finding answers which resonated.

I started recalling all of my other worldly experiences that didn’t exactly make sense to me as a child, but now everything has its place. My desire for understanding opened up a heightened awareness to energy. The turmoil of the mind and my heightened awareness had placed me into a deep need for a relationship with the Universe. With God. I needed that guidance so I didn’t have to figure this all out on my own.

I questioned everyone’s intentions and questioned their truth. You see — the mind is a powerful thing, and it will manifest in the imagination and even into form what your fears are, however you were conditioned to understand those fears. The brain will try to find truth as long as it fits unconscious belief systems. It’s self preservation. It will also create a world of beauty and love through whatever you are conditioned to believe is good in this existence. But the scales were tipping and i needed to rescue myself from it all. I was conditioned to know Jesus was a savior, and Jesus helped me save myself many times by His mere presence from those intrusive thoughts. Peace came in those moments.

Within the onset of OCD and my awakening I began studying energy concepts and practicing mediumship. I also became certified as a spiritual life coach. It all came so naturally to me. Mediumship actually helped me with understanding thought; what is mine and what is not mine. To trust in receiving is the ultimate surrender of fear and ego. To assume that everything is our thought is actually a pretty unlikely theory. Surrendering all expectations and connecting to one’s Spirit without the ego in the way was so much more fluid than me connecting to someone here on earth with an ego in the way. Spirit was true, pure, whole, and honest — all that is needed for allowing another to heal themselves through the earthly pain or confusion. Spirit didn’t say things my ego needed to hear. Spirit communicated through having me feel the truth of their heart. Sometimes words weren’t even needed.

By 2019 I had healed and I had reworked the neural pathways of the chemical dis-order, and I felt I had the roadmap for change, but in 2017 I was just starting my healing journey. I decided to open a platform on Facebook for women and mothers struggling through intrusive thoughts/Pure OCD. They came flooding in. It was wild to see I wasn’t alone either. We all supported one another. That group was a community of over 2000+ women going through OCD together, and some also even having their own spiritual awakenings through the façade of OCD. The interesting thing was that I was knew the women who enter red who were actually having a spiritual awakening shift vs just OCD. I felt that to my core. We were drawn to each other, always.

The first time I wrote the word Solace in the description of my group, I knew Solace was the future of something BIGGER

I knew I was suppose to help others. In 2018 I set my sights on becoming a life coach. I had an intention to help others though it, whatever their ‘it’ was for them.

I was certified with the International Coaches Federation as a Transformational, Mindset, and Emotional Intelligence life coach, and through Renaissance Life Therapies as a Cognitive Behavioral coach. But because of what I was personally going through, spiritually, it incorporated a desire to understand concepts not only within psychology but also philosophy, quantum physics and metaphysics.

I realized that at times, I was channeling God’s guidance. What was occuring was this: When I surrendered my ego’s assumption of what someone needed to hear to harness change, because of my training, and even my knowledge gained through personal experience and self development, God worked through me. God utilized me and my personality (everything which made me me) to deliver the exact energy/message one needed to feel/hear in that given moment in time for healing to begin or continue for them.

And so it began. Solace offers Channeled healings By allowing another to hear/feel something their soul already knows, giving them an experience through emotions as confirmation. That Internal experience is what change actually is.

From a higher perspective, I see us all as emissaries of Divinity. Every service on this earth could be seen as Divine guidance — if you allow yourself to connect that deeply.

I believe that everything leads us back to the only path — the journey within. I believe the what we choose to believe in given moment in a lifetime is right for us, in that moment. Our awareness shifts as we choose growth, and we are always guided towards self realizations through our relationships, though our experiences, and through God’s desire for us to live our lives in full alignment. Our experiences help others, and round and round it goes.

Within my personal journey of unknowingly allowing my thoughts and emotions to manifest a dark reality and state of mind, I grew to understand the mind, thought, the discernment of energy, and what it takes to create a new type of reality where suffering is no longer neccessary.

I learned that we are all here to help each other though it so as to help one another rediscover and remember the truth of what is underneath it all.

This is our expansion and evolution. From one of my most favorite authors and channel’s of Go'd’s word, I leave you with this: